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oh! how could i!one hour behind ><!!!!!! gonk damn it!!!!-sighs-i'm lucky hes really nice;he has a football (or soccer) game today he told me in a pm, so hopfully i'l see him later heart heart :

oh yeah, i wouldn't be righting in you now, but speeking of John; i didn;t get to tell you about what happend last night!it was strange but i day dreamed x.x; but it was real!god it felt so real.or maybe i was going crazy,no it was i sow everything;yesterday i was sitting at my vanity curling my hair;i was hoping mom would have got my cord; i was gettting ready so i would be able to let John see meh blaugh (i don't let him see me at my worse)anyway, after i got done i was messing with my locks whin i sow in the mirr;behind me, John sat down on the bed, i swore it was real but i didn't move.he looked to me in the mirror and smiled, i had no choce but to back, i thought i was dreaming but he stood up and i turned around, i'm telling you it was real!!! >< gonk gonk gonk but, as soon asa i reached him, it all whent away.....i knew it couldn't be true...but a girl can have her dreams....i knew he couldn't have gotten over here now........but i was still upset....i cryed the rest of the night;on my floor......i don't understand.....i'v never "day dreamed" befor.....not once.....i'm kindda scared.....am i going crazy?i couldn't dare tell any of my friends nore John abotu this.....they would all say i was nuts...but its ture...he was there...i told my sister about it she said: your just pyhco: i'm not..but after she said that,it made me wonder if the lack of eating and sleeping had somthing to do with it. neutral after it was all over, and i layed down to go to "sleep" all i sow was him , all i thought about....i know its a good thing to think about him, but after that it scares me, i hope i get to see him today, even if he has no idea somethings wrong with me,(i hide things pritty good)he always makes me feel better.-rubs eyes-

ah yes the funny thing about yesterday, the sttuff i didn't get to tell you about yesterday.. xd after i got done talking with John, i whent to take my daily shower, but it wasn't so pleasing, to say.About 3 min. after i got in and started wasing my hair i got shampo all in my eyes, than i droped the bottle, chasing it all over the shower gonk stressed when i leaned down to get it i smaked myself on the towl hanger right in the eye, the same eye that always gets hit, firworkFishing polls; my hand for God sakes, i'm beging to think it wasn't meant for me to have my left eye ><;not only did that happen but i yelled out "s**t" and John(my little brother) just opens the door and walks right in "Kayla whats wrong?" i was so ready to kill him ><;;;;; but i couldn't stop laughing at myself,gladly to say i got my self outta there clean...and alive O.o;;;;;;; than i killed him for barging in on my "best shower ever in my life time" XD i had to tell someone XD

oh great now mom wants the pc. well i might be able to get back on and tell you about today and how it goes at night. heart i just hope i'm back on when John is....