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Today Sucked ><;;;;-sighs and looks down- i didn't get to talk to John all day today.... i got up at 6:00 and have been on eversence, i waited for 11 hours for nothing, but i don't blame him.I hope i see him tomorrow i know it sounds stupid but: if i don't get to talk to him one day, that day i feel like i'm not complet -laughs at self- but i don't blame him, i'm gessing something came up.Alli and Jason cheered me up as i was waiting for him, they gave me visions of really being with him, i was very happy untill now, now that i havn't talked to him. but i know i'll see him agian n.n i don't ever lose faith in our love, but sometimes i think he does.i'v alwaysed wondered if he was really happy being with me or not...all i know is that i'm happy with him, and i can't assume he isn't anyway. Even after all thats we have been thru. perhaps in 3 years when i'm older what alli said will come true but, i can't get my hopes to high up.
today has been the worst so i have not much to say about it. except i wish John were here today to talk with me alli and Jason -laughs- anyhow thats all i have to say about today.