oh Journal....i told him, i told him what i have wanted to for the longest....i got what i wanted for christmas....-trembles letting her tears bellow out-but i've had it for along time....but i come to find, i don't just want this at christmas....i want it all year....every day..i know some people think i'm crazy for being in love at my age and....it being an online love....but i couldn't love anyone irl like i do him...i cried today just cos of what he said...i still am cring, they are mixed tears...i'm happy for having him for still being with him....but it upsets me so badly...to know hes not with me....i know its over the internet...i know this but i can still feel that he is my true love...i didn't believe in true loves for the longest time....but i can't help the passion i feel, the glee i get when being with him...i mean i jump when he pops on, and feel like dying when he leaves..i can't help it...mom doesnt' aprove, but i don't care i do...i love him ....so much i want to word it more but i can;t.....i can't find the words to even say to him after what he said....he took my breath away...i burst into tears and smiles...i was tremberling, i didn't know what to say...i'm sorry if i'm rambling i am still tremberling...god i have always wondered if he has cried for me...but i know he couldn't have -chuckles lighly- hes stronger than that -smiles.....let me try to stop cring......
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John told me today he was entering another fighting comp. i'm not happy about it, but i am a little cos he likes fighting. it makes him happy i guess i dunno, but if it does i'm perfectly fine with it, i would be fine with it anyway but i don't want him getting hurt. i don't know what i'd do if he got hurt &&!!!!! gosh i really shouldn't right THIS much in you -chuckles lightly-so i'm gunna stop righting xD if anything eles interesting happens i will tell ya k? =3
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