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The rest of my sad pathetic love story.....

After they made there "schedule", the rest of the year was kinda fun being friends with him again. Me, him, and two of my best friends did alot of projects together. But I knew the friendship couldnt last. He found out that I was emo but he didnt know why. I was glad he didnt know why... He could've reacted two ways: He could've reacted like Im crazy and a big idiot or He could've reacted like he was really sorry he caused me so much pain. I just didnt want to find out.
This year has been so torcherous and painful to me. It kills me to be away from him but its worse when the person you love so much but wish you didnt, ignors you. He hasnt said a word to me this whole year! But he trying to be friends with my best friends. Its driving me crazy. Because every time I want to talk to my friends he's right there.
Then my luck at getting a boyfriend never works. In 7th grade I liked another guy at the same time. I thought that it was just a crush but now I love him too. I think. I dont even know if its possible to love 2 people at the same time. If anyone knows then please tell me. My friend was going out with him so that wouldnt work. She broke up with him and I was hopeful but I knew that he would NEVER like me. So thats why I've given up on love. Even though I still love them both, all love has given me is pain. emo
So thats my story of how I became emo and why I am the way I am.