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Every where I go there's mother's to be, loving couples and families..Then there's the family I'm stuck in until I move out after I eventually graduate. I see the families and the families to be and I have the motherly instinct of wanting that. I want children of my own. I want a loving husband or at least a caring one. My cousin just had her first child. A beautiful baby boy named Raylynn. She's the closest thing I have to a sister, and I havent gotten to see her because my psycho mom insists that my cousin's family is out to kill her.I was lucky to see that baby boy today because my mom decided to be polite. He's the most wonderful thing I've ever seen. It was amazing to see her hold him and see the motherly love almost radiating from her. Is it bad to want a family so soon?? I know that it will most likely never happen to me. To ever be able to have a husband and children. I dont think anyone would ever love me that much but I can say that if I were to become pregnant and/or married now....I think that I would be more happy than I could ever be..I want a family of my own more than anything.