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So just as my life gets better every time it blows up in my face. I'm trying out for Drum Major tomorrow. For those who dont know thats the person in marching band that stands on the podium at half time and looks like they're just waving their arms around. I've worked my butt off to get this position and I dont think Im going to get it. Everyone thinks that Im sooo lucky to have parents like mine who are "always there for me". Yea right! They couldnt care less if I got it or not. They dont want anything to do with me and this position. My dad has asked me on several occassions how my day was or how things were going and I would start telling him and he would block me out. He would start talking about something else with others around or he would walk away and do something else. He wouldnt care if I was choking to death. I can be talking to someone and he'd just butt in for no reason except to keep me from talking. I never get to finish a sentence around here! Nobody wants to here how my day is going or how Im feeling. They cant stop to ask "Hi Erin how was school today?" or "How was your day?" Nope. And when I start to tell them something that bothers me every now and then I get yelled at! They say "You need to quit your complaining and act like somebody" and "Shut up and stop that whinning. I cant stand it when you complain all the time!" But I have to sit there and listen to every single one of their problems and their bitching about people they have to deal with and how awful work is..... scream scream scream