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Today was like a day i have wanted to happen again for mounths.I finaly got to talk to my love again, i missed him so, i missed his funny sayings , and everything. i know i don't get to really touch him or be with him, but the words he says, they way he does it, makes me feel like i can -laughs- i know its strange, but true.
It's funny....i thought i would never get over what happend....but somethings you can't let go, i trust him again and i can see it in his words he really loves me.....my sister and mother think i was stupid to forgive him, but love overpowers.i know hes sorry about it, i just hope it doesn't happen again.i'd hate to go throu what i did again.perhaps what he tells me will come true one day, but i can't be so sure i would love to really see him irl.
Today i got to see alli, Jason and kai again. i feel so much happier now that i'm with my friends and love.i heard Tai (my rp brother) wasn't doing so good in his life, i'm worried for his sake. one night i had a dream he killed himself, scared me to death i remeber it well;he was having a bad day bad year.so he jumped from a NYC building, witch happend to be my home in the dream.when i came home, i sow cops and people, i found him and screamed waking myself up. after that i'v been worried....