It's pride month! emotion_rainbow
The month always sneaks up on me every year, but I think that's just mostly because time is just a weird soup at this point in my life. Something about having an awful office job will do that I guess.
But it does make me think about my sexuality and my gender whenever the month comes along. A part of me always wonders if I'm faking being bi, truthfully. I haven't been in a relationship since high school, and while I've thought some people are cute in the wild the thought of getting into a relationship scares me at this point. I mean who would want to put up with a 27 year old like me? And who would I want to live my entire life with too??
I guess if I really thought on it all I might not be fully bi, maybe like bi and ace combined, but truthfully I don't know anymore. (That's not to mention the whole convo about gender and what not because that's another can of worms)
I guess this is all to say that pride is always a weird time of year for me. I love it and I always want to celebrate it, especially with everything going on in the world rn. But I also never feel like I really belong? Like I'm taking a spot someone else could have.
Well, I don't know. Life is confusing and weird. But at least I had cake today. yum_cupcake
The month always sneaks up on me every year, but I think that's just mostly because time is just a weird soup at this point in my life. Something about having an awful office job will do that I guess.
But it does make me think about my sexuality and my gender whenever the month comes along. A part of me always wonders if I'm faking being bi, truthfully. I haven't been in a relationship since high school, and while I've thought some people are cute in the wild the thought of getting into a relationship scares me at this point. I mean who would want to put up with a 27 year old like me? And who would I want to live my entire life with too??
I guess if I really thought on it all I might not be fully bi, maybe like bi and ace combined, but truthfully I don't know anymore. (That's not to mention the whole convo about gender and what not because that's another can of worms)
I guess this is all to say that pride is always a weird time of year for me. I love it and I always want to celebrate it, especially with everything going on in the world rn. But I also never feel like I really belong? Like I'm taking a spot someone else could have.
Well, I don't know. Life is confusing and weird. But at least I had cake today. yum_cupcake