sigh...
I don't want this journal to be just me complaining, but god the past few days have just been... bad.
Work has just been so much that it drains all of the energy from me, so when I get home it takes all of my remaining energy to just feed myself, let alone do anything else I need to do. My dishes need to be done, my apartment needs to be cleaned, Sunny needs to be taken care of, and I need a shower. But I just can't find the energy to do any of it.....
And my work isn't even satisfying. I feel like they'd rather have just an AI thing to do it all instead of me and quite frankly, with the way they treat me, I think they should too even though AI makes my skin crawl.
I love making art and designing. Doing the logo for my parent's cafe was fun and kind of fulfilling, and I'm finally doing my own art again and I'm actually proud of how it's turning out! But whenever I walk in the office I just start hating design and art and all of it and I know it's just because I'm so fed up with everything. But also I don't want to start looking for a new job because everything is so unstable and scary right now and I just don't know what to do.
I guess talking in a silly online journal in an old website is one way to at least talk about it all. idk. I should eat the cake that's probably getting stale in my fridge....
I don't want this journal to be just me complaining, but god the past few days have just been... bad.
Work has just been so much that it drains all of the energy from me, so when I get home it takes all of my remaining energy to just feed myself, let alone do anything else I need to do. My dishes need to be done, my apartment needs to be cleaned, Sunny needs to be taken care of, and I need a shower. But I just can't find the energy to do any of it.....
And my work isn't even satisfying. I feel like they'd rather have just an AI thing to do it all instead of me and quite frankly, with the way they treat me, I think they should too even though AI makes my skin crawl.
I love making art and designing. Doing the logo for my parent's cafe was fun and kind of fulfilling, and I'm finally doing my own art again and I'm actually proud of how it's turning out! But whenever I walk in the office I just start hating design and art and all of it and I know it's just because I'm so fed up with everything. But also I don't want to start looking for a new job because everything is so unstable and scary right now and I just don't know what to do.
I guess talking in a silly online journal in an old website is one way to at least talk about it all. idk. I should eat the cake that's probably getting stale in my fridge....
