The brain is... weird...
Nothing's really happened lately that's particularly worth talking about I guess, but I've still been feeling weird for some reason. Like not a physical weird but more of a mental weird I guess. I don't know how to describe it beyond it feels like something is going to go bad, but I couldn't tell you what.
It might be the general yuck I get from my job? Especially lately it just feels like I'm one wrong move away from being fired. Or not even a wrong move I guess. It's not like I like my job, but I obviously still need to make rent. And my work friend actively looking for a new job and probably leaving soon makes me just overall anxious because I know I'm going to have to take over what she does and that sounds sooooooo stressful on top of what I'm already doing.
But also the more that I think about August the more stressed I get too because of the two concerts I'm going to. I know I'm going to have fun, I love concerts and even if I don't like the music too much I still really enjoy spending time with my sister. But there's something about the thought of driving to New Jersey and going to a big concert like the My Chem concert that makes me so so so nervous. But I've got to do it otherwise I would never be able to see My Chem live since no one I know irl likes them, and I would never ask someone to join me when the tickets are $200!!!!!!! My Chemical Sellout more like it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I better see the band's butts for that amount grrrrrrr!!!!!
Ugh I've gotta just think of the positives I'm going to have fun at the concerts and work is just work I've gotta grin and bear it. But man I think maybe that weird feeling I've got is just good ol stress........ 〒▽〒
At least I finally got a hair cut and it looks good on me...
Nothing's really happened lately that's particularly worth talking about I guess, but I've still been feeling weird for some reason. Like not a physical weird but more of a mental weird I guess. I don't know how to describe it beyond it feels like something is going to go bad, but I couldn't tell you what.
It might be the general yuck I get from my job? Especially lately it just feels like I'm one wrong move away from being fired. Or not even a wrong move I guess. It's not like I like my job, but I obviously still need to make rent. And my work friend actively looking for a new job and probably leaving soon makes me just overall anxious because I know I'm going to have to take over what she does and that sounds sooooooo stressful on top of what I'm already doing.
But also the more that I think about August the more stressed I get too because of the two concerts I'm going to. I know I'm going to have fun, I love concerts and even if I don't like the music too much I still really enjoy spending time with my sister. But there's something about the thought of driving to New Jersey and going to a big concert like the My Chem concert that makes me so so so nervous. But I've got to do it otherwise I would never be able to see My Chem live since no one I know irl likes them, and I would never ask someone to join me when the tickets are $200!!!!!!! My Chemical Sellout more like it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I better see the band's butts for that amount grrrrrrr!!!!!
Ugh I've gotta just think of the positives I'm going to have fun at the concerts and work is just work I've gotta grin and bear it. But man I think maybe that weird feeling I've got is just good ol stress........ 〒▽〒
At least I finally got a hair cut and it looks good on me...
