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please no bad coments, i warn you now, this prolly isn't one of my more interesting things i have to say. i'll give ya a little summery, its about me...missing loving my Boyfriend so if you care nothing about hearing this. leave now ^_^ hank you for yer time on ward!
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oh dear lord! i am finaly home!!!!! omg!!! -kisses her floor many a times-thank you lord! -hugs everything in room- oh i missed my room and all, but theres only one thing i really missed -points to picture of John setting on her desk she printed out- John! i missed him so much! -picks it up and hugs it many times- i just got done talking to him, gosh i feel so much better now that i did.-sets picture down- i feel...i don't know...i can tell you this the hole time i was gone....-snikkers lowly- i couldn't help but cry alot to myself....its so hard to be away from him for just a day..it kills me on the thought of knowing the fact i can't really cuddle with him....and if you understand that...you know how hard it is just not being able to talk with him.....oh its really hard to stand..i couldn't bare that again...the hole way down there was bad...all i did was lay back and think of John.i even thought up a little thing [i'll tell ya later]its not that i was bored....i was....i guess i just felt lonily like i always do without him.....-looks down tring to think good thoughts- i did get a braclate, its silver and it has hearts on it some are pink. they will go very well with my new pink lady outfit. i also got a pink dimand studded heart pendant to go with it too.I got another braclate thats green for my irish outfit [no telly John...it always seems to start a fight if i bring up the fact i like Irish things]
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-sighs- for christmas from dad i got a heart shaped watch with dimond studs on it too, only not pink. its very pretty i got like 3 other watches too.....i got many things good...but nothing i wanted.....corse...why would i?....every year i keep wondering it...yet....i know....i try and tell myself "forget it kayla"....but it still wonders in my head.....-sighs softly- i wonder if he even cares on how much i really do love him.....i ponder if he cares at all sometimes.....-snikkers agian- what am i saying corse he does...-makes a face- right?....i mean...if he didn't care that i loved him....why wouls he...be..with...me? yeah thats it...thats right...right? oh i can't go getting myself worried again! god damn you kayla -smakes self hard- OW!!! ><;;;;....i just hope he understands >< i feel he doesn't sometimes....but i'm sure he does....right...right?......RIGHT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!.................right...4 years.....right......right? -walks off mumbling right to herself-