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Nothing much has really been going on with me.
Just dealing with the usual...

My iddiotic friend who wont leave me alone when I need space.
And gets all mega emo on my a**. He blames me for all the problems.
When really he should look at what he has done to make me push away.
I mean hell. It's not like we really have a choice of who we want close in our lives.
I mean I have a hard enough time trusting people as it is. Then he exspects me to still remain friends with him when he hacks into my photobucket, takes photo's that arn't his.

Yeah. Real smart move on the trust meter. Oh. But that isn't even the best part.
He decides to copy the pictures onto his computer to try and black mail me with.
OH YEAH!... I"M REALLY GONNA WANNA BE FRIENDS WITH A BLACK MAILER.
s**t. I dumped friends for less in the past.
But not only did he hack into my photobucket. Which may I add is my life.
Everything I love or have ever loved is stored in thier.
Every picture for me is a memory. And if I lost that I would kill myself.
I really would.

Anyways. He also hacked my msn. And he was gonna touch my gaia.
Lucky I changed my passwords on my gaia and stuff.
But yes. Now he's not giving me the space.
I might I add. Asked nicely for.

"I was like I dont want to talk to anyone at the moment, I'm not even talking to my close friends. (I named a few he would know, so that he would know I REALLY wanted some space.) So just leave me alone for a bit."

Then he all like. Got on his other account that I had only put on my list in the first place because he gave it to a wow friend of ours so I could talk to her. So I pretty much blocked and deleted that one.

Then he wanted to know when he could call me again... I'm like bleh... Then he wanted to know when I would be on again so he could talk to me. Cuz I'm the only thing he has good to look forward to.

I'm like thinking...WTF!!...
1) I am not his gf. Yet he acts like a phyco ex.
2) He is 10 yrs older than me. The only way We meet was because he played on the same WoW server as me and helped me out alot in the game. We also played at the same place. So I know the nut job in real life.
3) He is so in love with me that he pays for me to come over to the states to meet, of all people. THE PERSON I AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH. Because he wants to see me happy... well that was the reason I thaught it was, and that was the reason he told me. All he ever wanted was me to go over and fail. Then come back and "need" him to fill the gap.

So far thro the trip all he has done is. a) Nagged me as soon as I got here. I mean I had just got off an 18 hour flight of no sleep. I was jet lagged as ******** and he had already called the place I was staying so when I arrived They would give me a message. Thats cool. But I like woke up the next day. And they where all like yeah. (name's) been calling for you. Blah blah... I was like gah... I'm jet lagged. And I really want to deal with this right now...

I dont ******** think so...

Anyways. It all started thier. With the need to know 100% what I was doing.
No privet life. And IF I didn't tell him something. He felt left out. ********. This trip was not him comming along for the ride. I didn't sign up to be his personal sight see'er. I signed up to be with hannah. And that is what I am doing. And I am loving being with her.

Every day.

Cam with me. No. But I miss ur face.
Oh ur going somewhere? Take the cam so u can show me pictures.
Give me pictures.
Blah blah.

EVERY ******** DAY.
ok I get the point that yeah a few pictures every now and then.
BUT ******** I DONT TAKE THE CAM WITH ME EVERY WHERE.
Some places you just dont.
And if I blocked him for some space.
I felt way better. But he just got worse and worse.

I'm getting sick of it. Then like. He started e-mailing me when I block him to get me to talk to him.

And going to my mother and telling her s**t I have been up to.
And bullshit stuff like that.
And when I ask how the subjects where braught up in the conversations with my mother he. And I quote. "Doesn't know."

Yeah ******** right you dont know.

Yes a friend ship with this guy includes.
Black mail. Guilt trips. Stalking. Hacking. Looking at privet files. Abuse. Harrasment. Death threats on his own life if you dont talk to him. Him quitting his job so he wont be able to make the loan repayments. Really Really stupid s**t.
To name only a few.

Then he asks me if I feel guilty to all the things I have done to him.
The only things I have done.
Is...
1) Not tell him every ******** second of s**t that goes on here. I mean I am alowed my own privacy right?
2) Not given him pictures when he really really wanted them. Like I said before. I'm not here to talk pictures for his pleasure. Most of the pictures i took i gave to him. Some I took for other friends. And yeah. He copyed those to.
3) Yelled at him for being to pushy into my life when I just need space. In fact... If he had just let me have my space. Where I didn't have to ******** block him to get that space. Then this s**t would of never had happened. None of my other friends act like this. Only him.

And his only excuse. Is because he is ******** in the head. I mean yeah. He has had tests and he is crazy. And he wants me to help him? Um... I can't... I can hardly deal with my own problems. Let alone him.

He says time and time again he is trying to get help.
Is he going to meetings to talk with profesinals about this s**t?
No.
He he looking for other options apart from me being his wounder cure?
I dont think so.

Bleh. I'm even getting sick of talking about talking to him.
Bleh. I'm done for now. I'll write a proper journal entry later or something.
Tho not much really has happened anyways.
talk2hand
Bleh.
Peace.

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