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So I'm in love.
I never thaught I would be again.
But like life in all it's impossiblities.
It's happened. My hearts beats again.
Beats stronger and deeper than I ever thaught it could.
I kinda didn't exspect it. Not with her. I mean. I knew I had feelings for her.
I just never thaught it could go that deep... Or that they would be returned.
It's like when you have the biggest crush in the world... And you dont want to tell them how you feel.
Because your scared they will run away... So you stay friends.
You sink your love like an old ship.
Hoping it will drown.
That you will be happy with the feelings of friendship.
It's such an impossible love... But why does she feel this way back.
Love this strong should not be this hard.

"I wanna sweep you off your feet."
"You do tai. Ever time you walk into the room."
"...You to... every time you look at me."
How... Why... Can you love me...
"Do you find me attractive?"
"Yes tai... Very... It's your eyes."
"My eyes show my emotion I guess."
'Yes tai.. they do."

I found myself laying in bed. Once again awake at 4am...
Thinking about her, and listening to the song that reminds me of her.
Put it on repeat. Layed thier in the darkness, hands mehind my head.
Rain falling against my window. I started writting my vouls.
My wedding vouls. I didn't write them down or anything...
And I have been engadged once before... In RL.
But I never have thaught out vouls... And acctually wanted to say them to her.
I see us married. We sometimes talk about if things where differn't.

"You know... If you wheren't married, I would marry you."
"I know tai, me too."
"Really?..."
"Without hesitation."
"Wow..."
"Tai whats wrong..."
"You took my break away... Only twice have you ever done that"
-She laughes- "About time I get one up on you tai... Your doing it to me all the time."
-I laugh along a little, really tears comming to my eyes,... If only so many things where differn't-

So I'm in love...
One who lives right next door... One who lives half way around the world and is married.
Welcome to my life.
One is true soul love.
The other... Well... Blonde, Blue eyes... Body of a goddess. You work it out.