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It's been a long week, full of trouble and I'm sure as hell glad it's over. x_x; Yesterday was a difficult day. It was what would have been my only cousin's 22nd birthday. He was murdered, two years ago. I try to keep laughing and keep going on, even if just for his sake--since I know he would want me to, but it's hard.
I'm still hurting in more ways than one and I feel horrible about myself. I wish things weren't the way they are. But...they have to be. We can't turn back the clock.
Tonight I've laughed a lot with my friends. I needed that too. I feel I'm losing my sanity. I just need a shoulder to cry on. x_X; And I'm not getting that. Though I do know my friends care, even if they show it in odd ways.
My friend Tom for example. It seems to me that sarcasm is his way of pushing away people that he doesn't want to get too close. But...I can see a good person much deeper in there. Just...a good person whose been hurt, and doesn't want people to know it. So he acts confident as if he's never had anything go wrong in his life and he can kick the whole worlds a** but...I know thats not it. I know its different. And...I want to know the person beyond the sarcasm and the scars. I can see he cares. ^___^ And I'm glad.
 animepurinsesu · Sat Aug 19, 2006 @ 03:09am · 0 Comments |
