If in all my time of humanity, I have no acted even once on the ideal of humanitarianism, am I a monster? Am I a creature not worth living because I've decided to be myself instead of living to the expectations of a society? I love the ideal of humanity, but I hate humans. As such, the actual objective for humanitarianism has been ruthlessly mutilated and more resembles a dictator's ploy than a democracy's dreams. My lack of humanity has led me to become a calloused individual more focused on the concept of ensuring my own sanity before the sanctity of others. For this, I am often looked down upon, for not being "human," for not living my life according to the will of another other than God, for not caring about their stares.
If being human is being a conformist, I am not human. If being human is being part of the pack, that is not of me. If being human is wishing to be someplace higher than I really am because the world thinks that it would do me well to go that far, then that is not the humanity that exists in me either. If in the end, all that being human entailed was living your life for someone else instead of living it for youself then I will never be human and I will be proud to proclaim it loudly in front of every oppressor that has ever comfronted my path.
Being human can't be about living a life of lies, nor can it be about living a life that you yourself aren't truly convinced of its significance or purpose. We are born with an innate purpose, a predetermined reason, but the course of action we take in life dictates just how our legacy, whatever it may be, will be remembered. Being human is finding the path and living it to the fullest and to the best of our abilities without regret. Being human is being the individual who makes an impact on the group and partakes in the group when reason and occassion arises. If being human is such a great thing, such a positive thing, such a thing that many people fight their entire lives in order to be a human without unfair constraints, then how come I hate everything about being human?
I hate everything about humans and love everything about humanity. How come the two never intertwine?
 Xits the Tragedy · Mon Jul 03, 2006 @ 03:39pm · 0 Comments |
