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bad nite
hmmm, a tip from tai, stay away from drugs, they mess you up, god what a stupid nite, i ended up going to a party and taking some noss, like a gas that you inhale, usually don't do much, make you all giggly and stuff, but for some reason somone desided to mess with my head, and i ended up going into a bad trip, thank god amy and katt where thier, i owe them my sainity, now most ppl would be like, but wait tia, it's not like you to do drugs, and ur right, i've never really liked them, i still don't like them, sure i did a bit when i was young,...not like i'm old or something now but meh, i guess after some of the trips i have had i was in for a bad one, like my bro always says you know when ones comming your way, i dunno what happened, i was all good giggling and feeling great, i had had a fair amount booze so i guess i was a little more into stuff than i would have been, then i started to see ppl from my past, and i curled up and went into a differn't world, all i could do was say i'm sorry and call out my girlfriends name, i don't even know how long i was under for, i think it was about 4 hours, i couldn't stand to have any guys around, amy had to hold me to her cheast as i rocked back in fowarth crying, and calling out the names of goasts, calling out my girls name and saying i'm sorry...i don't even remember much, just pain, like all the hurt i have ever felt in my life comming back all at once, my body going into shock, then amy's voice telling me to listen to her heart, holding me close to her, tricking me into thinking it was my girls arms i was being held in, it's amazing to think of how long that she stayed with me, to think that i now trust her more than ever, to know that i called out my girls name, and no-one elses...it was a werid thing seeing all the things i had spent so long blocking up all come back to me, anyway it's not important, but i'm telling you now for whoever is going to read this, to stay away from drugs...or if you are going to do it, do it some where safe, where if things do go bad, you have somone you trust that can pull you back, it's a scary world out thier....i just want you all to know to keep safe, and you are loved, no matter what you are loved...and you always will be, and if you doubt that look into the eyes of the people you hold dearest, the ones who know you best, you will see it thier, it surounds you, it shines...just be safe people, whats all i want..
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