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I give up. Plain and simple. I give up on really my friends. I still consider my friends, but I'm no longer gonna be the one who asks if they wanna do something. I keep trying, but it dosen't work. And that also includes my girlfriend. I'm no longer gonna call her. I just keep getting let down. If she wants to talk to me so badly, she'll have to call my cell/home phone.

The reason I give up is that they technically lied to me. They said they'd be there for me, and it was a lie. I tried to get Max's help, but he hasn't returned my calls in 4 months. I tried to get Andy's helps, but he hasn't called me back, and he's not the best person to go to. I tried Devon, but it's not a good idea to get help from someone who's having more problems, and more severeproblems at that, then you have. And tried Ashley, but a lot of the time she dosen't seem interested in the problem, or even me, she's too busy, she forgets, or she cries about it cause she thinks it's her fault, when it's obviously not, and a new problem arises. The thing is she's probibly not gonna think I love her (even though I do A LOT) and gonna start crying when she reads this.

The thing is that I love these people. I hold them so very close to my heart, but they offered something to me saying if I needed them, I can go to them, but obviously it's not working. I just wished they didn't present me there help, when they weren't gonna give it to me. It kinda makes me feel ditched, outkasted, and a little used, since I always help them when they have problems.

I don't blame you guys for the reason I'm sad, but don't give me an option that you're not gonna keep true to.