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I've been feeling a bit lonely lately. It makes sense. I'm in home school now. All I really do is stay home and do work, go on the internet, or sleep. I don't regret doing home school though. If anything, it's the best thing that's ever happened to me. It's a lot easier for me to do work all by my lonesome. I have to go to OFL for 2 1 hour days a week, but it's a lot easier then going to regular school every week day for 8 hours.

I guess I'm just saying that it's been getting a little quite. My friend goes to school, but he's never had the same schedule as me (different school districts). My girlfriend is planning to go to home schooling too, but her mom's been weird. She thinks home schooling is the easy way out....not! I do a lot more paper work then the average student, and you have to learn form a text book, so there no teachers to help you, most of the time. If you miss one assignment, they kick you out, and won't let you back in for a while, so that a kick in the pants.

I'm also getting a little lonely cause....I really only have one friend. Yep...I used to have a tight group of 4-5 friends, but now it's reduced to one. The reason I only really have one friends is cause he's the only one that younger then me and doesn�t go to college (besides the fact that he's the only one who calls me). My friend Max and I kinda just parted. We don't hate each other, but we're getting older, and we just can't do the same things we used to do. My old friend Josh Berg became a b*****d, so I ditched him. And my other Josh, Josh Lampel, went to college 2 years ago, and I really only get to say hi sometimes on the phone. But I might be selling my friends short, cause if you add my cousin, Devon Morrissey, and my girlfriend, Ashley Riddle (one day to be Morris heart ), I have about three friends.

But hey. We all grow up. I mean it's natural. Even though I'm only seventeen, I know that friends just part from each other, and they need to live there own life. You never know. Max and I might become the friends that we used to be when we're in are mid-twenties. Fate is a twenty-sided-die, you'll don't know if the outcome will be high or low.

Loneliness is all about growing up. Sometimes you need to be lonely to think. It's a natural thing. I'm just glad I was exposed to stuff in my life when I was lonely, because I probably wouldn't know who I am still, and probably keep wearing black Blink 182 shirt and wanting to get my ears pierced. I learned that the only way to be yourself is to not care if people think you're cool or not. You just gotta not care, cause most of the criticism you're gonna hear is bad, cause people think negatively, and even though they might get good criticism, they will only hear the bad.

Final thought on things:

I've always been more grown up then most people. My girlfriend think it's kinda sad that a grew up too fast. I really like it. You notice things when you're an adult. You see things how the world see them, and your less likely to get confused. People treat you with more respect. I can tell you. It's much nicer being' an adult. People who still are kids� think it's horrible because you'll have to do stuff and pay for things your parents pay for you (Electricity, Water, Gas, etc.). But when you get to that age, you start to notice that it's not that bad. I mean I'm gonna be 18 next year, and I might wanna move into an apartment. If I wanna plug in my computer, I'm gonna need to pay my electricity bill, or if I'm thirsty, I'm gonna need pay the water bill, and especially if I wanna shower. Everything you like: cell phone, Game console, food, computer, are all gonna need to pay those bills, and if I have a job, I will not hesitate to pay them.

Growin' up is the best thing that ever happen to me, and maybe someday, you kids might feel the same way too.