Jan. 19. 09
As it seems in my current state of mind, I've hit rock bottom and I'm slowly coming back. This week has been mostly up and positive. Mom had a scan to see the baby. It really is cute. It's healthy and we can see little fingers. it's got a big head and belly and two little legs. We still don't know the gender, that's next appointment. I commented on the picture, it looked like a little hamster or something. Other than the baby, not much has happened, I got a new Creed CD and I'm happy about that.
I'm taking an Art class currently and we are working with still life. We have regular check-ups in class to see where our piece is and where we need to go. My teacher addressed mine and told me that it was really quite amazing, that was probably a highlight. I finally beat two bosses on my game that I've been stuck on and I hardly broke a sweat on the first one.
I've been thinking about my love more though, remembering the good times and knowing that at the end of this it will all be a bad memory. But hey! What doesn't kill you makes you stronger! (unless it's polio) I have to remember that if he's being strong for me I have to be strong for him. I can't give up. I've thought about him at night while watching movies and the like. I can say that I miss him everyday and my wounds are beginning to heal but I still feel incomplete without him.
Either way, It's been a pretty good week, i think I'm going to start an art shop and a website soon ^^ I'm stoked about the web site and I'll post it here once I have all the work done. I've joined the set-design group for a play and that seems to be goign well. I have a feeling that this year will be hard without him but it will give me a chance to get a lot of things done that I've been meaning to do. I hope everyone enjoys the new year.
Until I have something else to write about-
Love you, forever and always.
