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There is always something on my mind. Some far out concern or stupid worry.

Right now i am worried about my future with Dave.....right now my contact with him is relatively minimal. i only get to see him every other week, or sometimes only once a month. Up to three times in a month if i am REALLY lucky.
We only get to talk for a few hours a day.....sometimes 5 hours or so tops when i manage to be able to keep the phone longer.

so now to what is concerning me.

i'm worried about when we can finally spend all the time together. Will everything always be okay then too? It will be different when i am with him 24/7 all year round compaired to only being with him sometimes.....

I mean, so far in our relationship, everything is great and i couldn't have asked for anyone better than Dave. But i'm still concerned about the future we have together. or...even possibly don't have.

Sometimes i really wish he would read these, because i don't always know how to bring this up and about in a conversation, and i really don't want to make him worry or drag down his mood....but i think at the same time, i also think ineed his reassurance.

So....as of now....i really odn't knwo what to do or think or say and its making me crazy.