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Today was a my friend's Ellie's service. It was held at the river that she had died at. There were people there who I didn't even know that I know that knew her. It was very sad. They had us take flowers as a way to have clouse. Travis and I slipt the flowers that he bought and walked intho the water and sent them down the river. After that, I got into the middle of the river, I was wearing a jeans and a shirt and got competely in the water. I was the only who did. Some people stood in to, whlie others sat on the rocks with their feet in the water. I started crying during the service, because it had finally hit me that she was dead. Before today, it just seem to be a joke, that she would pop up and go surpise, I'm not dead. I knoow now and fell too, that is not going to happen. I miss her.