I think, instead of starting on my feelings for this week, I'm gonna clarify on some things iabout the relationship. Also, I'm going to post the wonderful poem I made for her on Valentine's Day. heart But still, please forgive me for it not being the update I promised!! crying
Okay, clarification. First off, even though se has yet to return my feelings of love, we are still close friends. She is closer to her friends than most normal people tend to be, but shows more affection towards other girls in the group (of course). She even allows me to hug her and use her shoulder as a pillow, if I wish (she used to use my shoulder as a pillow, but alas, I have a bony shoulder, and the potholes in the road make for a very bumpy bus ride. sweatdrop ).
Second thing. It is, indeed, an inter-racial relationship. Not that anybody cares. lol I am white and she is black (*gasp* politically incorrect terms?! eek lol) I have no qualms with this, just as I have none for peoples' sexual preferences. if you love the person, what can you do?! whee
Third thing. Yes, she has promised to kill me. Literally. Don't ask me why, because I'm not even sure if she knows. sweatdrop I think it's one of those "I love you, but instead of kissing you, I'm gonna stab you till the blood stops coming out" kinda deals. sweatdrop
Fourth thing. I can't tell if she loves me or not. Even though she hasn't said "I love you", she does things that sometimes hint at it...then again, sometimes she does things that contradict that. sweatdrop She's wholly confusing.
Fifth thing. Yes, I do love her. My ramblings on the first post may not have been enough to convince some people, but I love her because of who she is. I did not consiously choose her, my heart made that decision.
Well, I guess that's it on points I have to make. I'll be sure to make more in the future in case I remember something else. sweatdrop lol Now, for the beautiful poem I wrote for her. heart
Through the darkest nights and chilling winds
My heart is still set aflame by your presence
Warming my body, and providing the light of hope...
Dog and master? Brother and sister? Bodyguard and employer?
It matters not to me, as long as I am by your side
I am happy regardless of our relationship...
Even if this is so, I still hope for more
I still hope that we can fall deeply in love with each other
And I still have faith for that till this very day...
My heart has already chosen, and now it is up to you
Because you told me to wait, I did, and I will - for as long as it takes
If needed, I will wait until the end of time...
But you should know that I love you with all of my heart
No words can describe it - I will do anything and everything on this earth to make you happy
Your smile, alone, means the world to me...
You are an angel that has blessed this cursed soul
There is so much I need to repay you for
And that is why I give you myself...
I know I am nowhere near perfect, and that you are perfection itself
But I have something that outshines everyone else
And it is that no one will ever love you as much as I do
Ain't it so beautiful?? crying I never heard what she thought of it, but it matters not - as long as she did read it, I am happy. whee Well, I guess that's it for today. I hope you all enjoy it. sweatdrop Well, Sayonara. 3nodding [Ow! I ran into the door frame... wahmbulance crying wahmbulance ]
 Shiro Inukage · Wed Mar 07, 2007 @ 11:04pm · 2 Comments |
