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My heart bleeds love for you
It fills an empty lake of my own
Despairing sorrow, red and angry
Like my eyes after crying
For hours in the mirror smudged
With black mascara from my sister’s
Make-up kit she doesn’t understand
No one understands my glass heart
Dashed on the crooked rocks of society
If only you’d acknowledge me
But instead you’re ripping my heart out
On a cold rainy day, rainy with blood.

I’m sitting in my black room wishing
Wishing the darkness in my soul would
Stop Hurting Tonight-night I’ll scrawl your name
In red on my arm like a careless signature
Sloppy and misspelled. My Chemical Romance
Plays on repeat on my CD player I throw it at the unfair wall
My CD player is just like me, Broken and unloved
I hate my life, I hate everyone else’s more.
I look at my face reflected in the razor blade
It’s distorted, and I look like I shouldn’t fit in
Like I’m supposed to be somewhere else, but
I can’t win in this struggle with oppression, tight
Like my black and white striped pants and refusing
To allow me the sweet freedom of body and soul
The British have black Monday, but every day is black for me

You hold my heart in your hands until you tie it with chains
And throw it into a lake filled with my own blood. It sinks
Into the dark depths of my crimson woe and lachrymose tears
Falling like the stripped multicolor bangs over my eyes into an infinite abyss.