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Ridley's Niche of Hell
My journal is to show people how bad my life really is.... not all of the time mind you but most of the time... and I might even post my next victim if I have the time
[B]A Dream[/B]
Okay.. the only real reason I'm posting this little tid-bit of information that has come out of my sub-conscious mind is the fact that I dont understand it... it means something.. but I can only make out part of it... and yes.. it is a dream about wolves... so dont even..

Okay.. this is pretty boring in terms of what usually happen in dreams, you know like you get superpowers or people get slaughtered, this one is NOTHING like that.. I'm a wolf, plain and simple...

Okay, me, I'm one of the lowest members in the pack, a loner, a outcast, always shunned by the others except for a select few whom I call friends, they stick by my side no matter what, and then theres this one wolf, she is absolutely beautiful, her fur reminds me of the pale shine of the full moon which I see every month, and which I look forward to every single time (I never learned her name), she was always there for me no matter what, if I was hurt or sick she would stay by my side and comfort me until I got better, if I was hurt she would help mend my wounds and be with me until I was fully healed

But the only real thing that made her also an outcast from the rest of the pack (I think this means society) was the fact that she had one brown and one blue eye, but besides that she was drop dead beautiful, and I just could never stop thinking about her, her beuty, her smile, her laugh, her face, HER...

She was always there, no matter what I was doing and where I was doing it she was there in my mind, on top of whatever else I was doing, I never wanted to let go, no matter what anyone else said about her I would just tell them to butt-off and to never say that about her again or else I would personally have their hide

I had many other female wolf friends, but most of them were either taken or just not appealing to me (its a dream bear with me), but it was one evening on the outskirts of the packs territory it was just me and all of my friends, and I was with her.. we were laying side by side and she had her paw over my neck while she licked my ear (to wolves thats like scratching their back), but after a while she moved her paw and nudged me back from the nirvana that she had put me in, and she spoke, her voice like silk "Matt... (yes my name IRL is Matt) what are we going to do?" she asked me, I replyed to her in my own wolven voice, nowhere near as beautiful or as fluent as hers "I dont know... what can we do_____"

And thats when I was awoken by my damned alarm clock, its annoying beep beep beep going over and over until I clambered out of bed and walked over to it atop my stereo

I've been having this dream for the past month now, and no matter what I do I just can not understand it

If anyone can help me please... feel free to do so.. I need it..

ANd for all intensive purposes here is what I think this all means:

The white wolf is my true love..

The reason I'm an outcast from the pack (society) is because I truly am, I'm a nerd and a geek IRL

Society is depicted as the pack, always trying to be perfect, if you arent then GOODNIGHT!.. you're outta there, they dont want you

And just because I like wolves doesnt mean that this is a dream just because I like them

Some people say everyone has their own animal spirit guide to help them through there problems in life, I think that is true

After I woke up and on the bus ride something hit me, and it made me jump on the bus, spooking a few kids around me

It was this quote I had just thought up, here it is:

"Think of life as a candle, the slightest wind may blow out its life-giving warmth, but if it doesnt then it comes back to full strength"


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  • User Comments: [4]
    :smiles: well you like wolves, thats cool ^^ it seems to me as if you had liked someone. and your dream refuses to tell you who. it'll come up one day. that special girl ^^ you'll see

    comment Foxet · Community Member · Tue Mar 01, 2005 @ 03:17am
    ~sighs~

    If you say so, one can only hope I guess


    comment lycan_ridley · Community Member · Tue Mar 01, 2005 @ 07:43pm
    I can relate I'm a geek/nerd/outcast too.

    comment PuppyFromHell · Community Member · Tue Mar 01, 2005 @ 08:49pm
    sounds as if you really like someone in your school, or you really are an outcast IRL like me. and there is someone who will accept you for who you really are, and you love her for it. it seems as if the white wolf is there always to care for you, and you need that. look around you, if one of the girl friends of your's are like the white wolf in that aspect, the white wolf may represent her, and you might secretly like her. take a chance to show that certain someone how you really feel towards her, and how much you appreaciate her, it can actually help you with your life too. trust me, once you discover that some one really likes you for you, you will feel better about yourself, and you will be alot happier, but also remember, you don't need anyone to make you happy but yourself. ^~^ wink

    comment Kariumissau · Community Member · Mon Mar 14, 2005 @ 08:46pm
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