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well i have been going through some s**t
my bipolar is kicking alot
meaning i getting depressed psycho, homicidal and suicidal.
right now i am more homicidal
i was a good ******** mood 2nd period
then people had to ******** with me
talk s**t
i wouldnt have care if it was directed towards me
but they started talking about jenna
"WOW you have a girlfriend you sure shes not a guy"
then i blocked out the rest
cause if i hadnt those two ******** bitches
would have been lying in a puddle of there own blood... .. .
right now my heart ******** hurt from fighting my bipolar and not killing them
******** ******** ******** ********
i feel like someone needs to ******** die
and for once i dont want it to be me but someone else
if only it wasnt against the law to kill someone i would have already done it
theres two things going through my head

the thing that jason hears:
kill kill kill die die die
kill kill kill die die die

and a song:
kill the people
kill the people left and right
kill the people
kill the people left and right
we dont need to multiply
we dont need to multiply... .. .

BUT ******** IT ALL MY BIPOLAR IS BACK
AND ITS JUST AS BAD AS IT USED TO BE

IF IT WASNT FOR JENNA I WOULD BE MY OLD SELF AGAIN
SLASHING AND CUTING WITH A BLADE DRIPPING WITH MY BLOOD