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Jared broke up with me.
I guess it wasn't just paranoia.

The end.
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Edit:...After looking at this post a few times... I thought I might as well explain what happened...

Today I came in and sat down with Megan and Justin in the Cafeteria. Our table is always next to Jared and Kyle's table. Kyle said my name. I looked over at him. He looked at Jared and said to him "Do you want me to do what we talked about yesterday...Or this a bad time?". Jared just shook his head. I of course suspected that he would break up with me... But I had to think possitive thoughts...
At 8:15, we all went down for an assembly in the auditorium... Sam and I waited for Kyle and Jared, but Kyle was already in there, and Jared was way behind with his other friends. We sat down in the auditorium and Kyle was one row ahead of me. I said "Kyle, what were you going to tell me in the cafeteria?". He just said "I'll tell you later, it's about Jared".
I STILL thought he was going to break up with me. I was almost in tears. On our way back from the assembly, Sam kept comforting me and telling me that he wasn't going to break up with me, and that I shouldn't worry. I really needed that. Thanks Sam.
But all during Science, I kept thinking about it... I couldn't consentrate... Every 2 minutes I'd look at the clock. Time was inching by slowly.
The bell rang, and I went to find Kyle. He was standing at his locker with Midget Boy *Nathan*. "Tell me" I said plainly. "Ok..Well...Jared wanted me to tell you that..." He said. I could feel tears forming in my eyes. I couldn't make eye contact with him. "...It's over. Sorry". I just kept walking. I didn't look back. I just kept my eyes on the ground in front of me, trying not to cry. I felt sick to my stomach... My hands were shaking... I wanted to cry, but I didn't want anyone to see...Especially Jared...
So without saying a word to anyone, I went into band, and I wrote a pass to the nurse. I told her I had a soar throat, stomach ache, and that I was feeling shakey *which was true*. She called my mom and I went home. I got home at about 10:45. My mom understood that I felt like s**t about Jared, but didn't want me to stay home just because of that. So I told her that I really did feel sick.
She dropped me off at home, and as soon as I closed the garage door, I broke down and cried. I couldn't figure out what I did wrong. I felt as though my whole world was crashing down around me... I loved him. I truley believed that I loved him...

I just don't know what I did wrong...

Morbidly Yours,
~Sam Gimpy Zip.