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ok, wtf?! seriously
why does my mom act like nothing i do can please her?! when i try to do something i think will make her happy it always backfires.
i clean the upstairs and my room(on my own agenda!!): she finds a million things wrong with it and makes me clean it more!!!
i have my friend fix stuff around the house: she acts like we ******** it up more!!! (which we dont do)
i say i'll have friends over and that they'll help clean. she gets home and is all "why isnt this area cleaned?!" im like "1. you didnt say that had to be cleaned, 2. we werent gonna clean till tomorrow morning cause we were just gonna make a mess tonight, duh!" so she freaks out and embarasses me in front of my friends and i send them home cause she's lost her goddamn mind
that woman makes me miserable every second of my life!! i've gone to bed every night never wanting to wake up. that just seems wrong to me.
its like she doesnt love me, like she just keeps me around because she can force me to do work and because the state forces her too gonk
i dont understand why im so unworthy of her love and appreciation...i guess i just have to deal with it for two and a half more years