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So I'm alil depressed today. emo Not that I got any bad news, on the contrary I just got some really good news. But it's news that has me kinda reevaluating my life and the choices I've made. My childhood best friend got married about 9 months ago, which is totally awesome, I was and still am so happy for her. I wasn't able to attend the wedding, because we live so far apart, and that made me sad, but not nearly as sad as I am now. My friend is pregnant and her due date is in August. It's silly really, but it just got me to thinking that everyone I know that's around my age is either married, planning a wedding, or having kids and I'm just like, "yeah still living at home with my parents and no job. go me". And it's just got me thinking, if I'd dated different guys in high school, or been more outgoing instead of shy, if i hadn't gone off to college, would I be getting married and having kids? Now, don't get me wrong, I love my life and I love that I'll be able to teach soon, which is something I've always wanted, but I've also always wanted to be a wife and a mother and I can't help but wonder if I'd be expecting my own baby already if I'd done things differently.