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Binged until I could binge no more, and then I felt so ******** sick My mom’s like, “Are you okay?” and I was like, “No, I think I ate too much.” And she’s like, “Yeah, you’ve been dieting so well and you just ate that entire carrot cake.” I was seriously in pain. She could tell. “Do you need to go to the bathroom?” “Yeah, I feel sick.” I went to the bathroom. Layed down on the floor. I was seriously in so much pain I could not stand. So I finally got up and barfed it all back up: first the carrot cake, then the enchiladas, rice, tomatoes, beans beans beans and then the flatbread. I came back to my table and we went home.
And then I ate two protein bars and some peanut butter.
What the ******** is wrong with me? I’m disgusting, and I want to die.
I’m never going to be good enough. I’m a fat ******** failure. I need to go cry and whine because I’m selfish and I’m a terrible person. What’s wrong with me?
I’m having a terrible day.
And then I ate two protein bars and some peanut butter.
What the ******** is wrong with me? I’m disgusting, and I want to die.
I’m never going to be good enough. I’m a fat ******** failure. I need to go cry and whine because I’m selfish and I’m a terrible person. What’s wrong with me?
I’m having a terrible day.
Emily, You're beautiful. I will not lie to you. You are the most strongest person I've meet, and I admire that. But this, starving yourself, makes you weak. Starving youself is tourturing youself. I'm scared. You are the only person I know who is truely their own person. I will not lie, I know you're not skinny, but I think you don't need to be. I understand if you want to lose weight. But bulimia, fasting, anorexia, is not the answer, a healthy diet with occasional exercise is. I don't know if you're going to read this, and if you do, I don't know if you'll even think about what I'm saying. I am 135 pounds, you're 130. if you think you're fat, you must think I am.
I am disappointed in you. You're too good for this, you're too strong for this. If you continue this you WILL die. Looking like a toothpick is not attractive. Seeing a persons rib cage is not attractive. Don't even try to convince me it is.
I'm doing this because I am scared. I care about you. A strong girl makes choices to make her life better, but sadly you've made made a choice to make you're life worse. Right now, I don't see Emily, I see a girl who is weak and insecure. I want the girl I was best friends with back.
