I... I'm sorry I haven't written lately. It wasn't on purpose, I promise... It's just that, well, I've been having... Problems. *winces* I feel pain inside... Unbearable pain sometimes... It doesn't go away and I don't know what is causing it. If only I knew, maybe I could stop it... But I can't because I don't...
I'm sorry if this is a tad confusing, but it's sort of hard to explain. I guess it's simple just to say that it comes and it goes. And I never know when it will be worse, when it will get better. How long it will last... I'm sorry to be talking like this, but it's just so painful sometimes, it's hard not to talk about it. I wish that I new, maybe if I'd known what they meant... But that's not important now. Just like I said I'd tell you about him later, I'll tell you about that later.
I just... I just wish it was easy. I could wake up one morning and it be gone, or find some simple, quick way to get rid of it. It... Oh no, it's coming back... *sobs* I... I wish I could... write a little longer but, I... Can't, it hurts too... *groans* Too much...
I... I.... I... *screams* I'm... SORRY! I didn't mean to... NO!! It wasn't my fault, please... *sobs* Please, no! Don't... *cries*
I have to go... I'm sorry... They said to leave... *whispering* Help me...
~ Melodi ~
