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I've meaning to write a journal entry.. two in fact. Two different subjects and I'd like to separate them. Plus the later subject still needs sorting out in my mind. I tried forcing myself to write down all, and I do mean all, thoughts on the subject. Even the ones I would never say out loud out, of fear and shame. I felt relieved at one point, like a great burden was lifted off my shoulders. And I'm not even done yet. =] On the side note, I seem to have lost complete interest in writing here. I can write to myself in a notebook.
Anyway... to the point behind this post. I seem to have found myself a second job more than a month ago now. Things seem to be looking up. I can't believe some of my go-getter actions. Found the job listing in a newspaper on a Tuesday, got hired on Wednesday. Funny thing was that power was not working in my area out of all the days not to work, I was way overdressed for the interview, I was late to work for three hours, and I couldn't get a stupid grin off my face once I was told I'm hired. So called temp job.
It's exhausting, sleep depriving, taking a toll on my body as well. I purchased pants and they became loose after two weeks. I wasn't even aware I had weight to loose, but apparently I did. I think I might be in the best shape I've ever been. I was dead when I started and my feet begged to fall off. My work involves a lot of walking. I might not be far off if I said I was hundred miles a night. I wish I could measure it.
Currently I find myself working, what hopefully will be steady, 63 hours a week, post holiday season, both jobs combined. I also spend three and a half hours driving almost everyday. I do long for some time to myself. I'd like to draw more, do some nice big work, and finally get to read a book I got. I wish at times that my badge won't work and I'll just get to go home and sleep... I miss sleep. Sleep is one of my neglected mistresses. Unless they by some madness decide to keep me there for good, I intent to move down to the area. Out of the woods and close to civilization. That's at least a couple months off.
I'm not sure how to manage my new resources. I do have a car to pay off and my initial thought was to pay it off as soon as possible. On second though, is this such a great idea? I could comfortably pay off even if I didn't direct all my attention to it, but having assets available to let's say.. further my education, there's a different take on it.
I have longed for myself to go up on a mountain and stay there until I figure out life and philosophy surrounding it, come down with my very own metaphorical stone tablets.
Take care stranger.
 niatsu · Sun Jan 09, 2011 @ 07:00am · 0 Comments |
