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It was a Sunday evening, at least the hours between 6:30-7pm. I was on the wait for the bus arrival down on Denny way. I caught the next upcoming bus. This bus came and stopped and picked us up. Before hand, Kaash and Moe, my two bro-like through friendship, and I let a few people in before ourselves. After they have gotten on the bus, Moe followed, Kaash followed, and than I followed aboard on the bus. It was pay as you leave. I took only about two to three big steps, the bus started before my next breathe, the bus drove for three seconds and stopped abruptly and everyone that was still standing fell with they're back towards the front side of the bus. And felt the need to push my hands forward in case someone might fall to the ground but I ended up being the one who flew just a bit of the ground and landed on my butt next to the bus driver, the entrance of the wall with my back and my legs we're folded crooked on the floor. After that, a split seconds, my nerves jolted as it gave me the signal sent a nerve in realization to pus my head forward. The only image I remember was seeing Kaash's back. The outline of his arms, shoulders, mohawk, and his back was all black shadow's (because he had black hair, black shirt), and what ever the Kaash did not fill up in my image was a flash of white clear image. Kaash and Moe picked me up by the arm while the bus driver felt sorrow and sympathy. I didn't know what to think. All I could think of was that, "It's okay, I know you didn't mean to do that bus driver". (I felt like saying that but I forgot how to speak). Kaash and Moe cussed him out. I didn't blame Kaash and Moe for cussing the bus out. I thought of to sides of the story and I didn't know how to judge the moment. I just decided to act like it was normal. I had no thoughts. I let it go...
As soon as the thirty minutes of bus ride after that accident, I remembered things in bits of pieces. Kaash and Moe, I left them too Roots or Orions or what ever happened that night, but I remember finding myself in my room.
..........Monday...............
-went GED classes
-heavy headache,
-bruised back
-couldn't move
-couldn't eat
-forgot how to eat
-lost weight uncontrollable for the next few days..... (Teus, Wed, Thurs,)
-threw up in the middle of the night while I sat out side texting at Revanna park just chilling.
-went home, to bed, and slept
............Tuesday...............
-went to GED classes
- skip lunch
-dealt with my day as the move
-> until I hang out with friends.
-went to Lambert, (waited there for until six)
- Monique lend me into her car since she's
going to the clinic, which is where I went to go
check myself out since my body still
ached from the bus accident.
-I went home with catching the bus home.
-walked to roots just passing by which is between
"42nd ave" and to "43th ave".
- left the place and was stalked towards the 52th ave.
-and supposedly it ended to wards a block to the house that I live at.
I tried to get ride of him for an hour and he still chatted.
I couldn't run because my back was in pain.
I couldn't punch because my arm was heavy for me to pick up
to hit him and run.
In other words, I couldn't do jack crap at the moment.
He slightly rubbed his palms on my shoulders.
Than before I knew it, his hands was on my hips.
He told me that I look like a freaky girl.
As boyish as I dressed, I guess I looked attractive in what I wear >:/
Anyways, he kept telling me that I should let
him ******** me. Honestly, I wasn't having it.
I constantly lied to keep him away from me.
I told him I was pregnant, bull s**t.
I told him that I have curfew soon, bull s**t.
I told him that it's important that I keep away strangers.
I told him to go that I can't have him around me.
I honestly did not want to piss him off to the point
where he's gonna follow me all the way to the place I
live at.
I soooo did not want him to know where I live
because I wouldn't want any body else at the house to be stalked
or what not.
So I acted nice.
He was tipsy, I guess.
Anyways, I fronted when I got hope and panicked
and took deep breathe.
(didn't eat that day)
At the moment, I don't trust strangers and or bus drivers.
.......Wednesday........
-went to work with Ava
-went to Lambert house.
-didn't bother eating
-went home.
..........Thursday.....
-went to work with Trig
-forgot how to eat
-I don't remember the day...
(forgot a lot of things this day)
...............Friday...........
-went to work with Ava
-Qwest Field.
-left and arrived at the Orion Center.
-went home and saw my stalker from Sunday.
-talked to Nikolai about my stalker and gave me a spray bottle which happens to be a MACE! Which I had no idea that it's what's it called, MACE!
-Went home.... picked up Kaashs Ipod, shower, changed into shorts.
-called up Monique and had them picked me up because I thought the stalker might be circling the house or some what.
-went to Jay's down on the 50th and hung out a bit.
-went to a few places with in Monique's car.
-Tyler got bitched out ( I think)
-walked around. Me and Kaashed disappeared.
-went to teen feed with Kaash. Found Monique at Teen Feed.
-This one dude, who happens to hit on me a lot grabbed the Mace out of my bag,
soooo, supposedly he didn't know what it was....
I tried to tackle him into giving it back while Morgan tied him down with his weight as much as possible to keep him down.
Before I knew it, the Mace was sprayed in my face, in his hands and maybe face, and on Morgans hand and face.
I was upset....
But before I knew it....
I almost forgot who I was.
went into teen feed....
felt odd vibes.
Forgot where the bathroom was at.
forgot how to eat.
After Teen Feed, me and Kaash went off on a adventure after I requested him to take me with him because I didn't remember how to get to Isis. I apparently I forgot a lot of things. I had Gerbil's birth name repeated in my head. And I only could wonder, "Who's Gerbil? Why was his name repeated in my head?".
That was the most epic weird thoughts.
-went to a movie with Kaash and Tennessee and a few others.
-After movies, we dipped out....
After awhile, we found Monique, Tyler, and the other Tyler (one of my room mates at Isis) laying outside.
-Me and Kaash joined them.
-we slept for quite good for such as... THERE WAS HELLA BLANKETS! FOR THAT MUCH I REMEMBER WAKING UP TOO PLENTY OF BLANKETS!
.............Saturday............
-blank-
-> Went home! And explained about my memory lost and on why I didn't came back home lastnight.
................Sunday............
Gucci and Selam made me stay home.
They ended up making me fall asleep after
a help of hot rocks on my back and hot nasty
medicine tea.
I first I thought I was being drugged...
(I guess I was... but I don't know if he did... or was he joking when he said that....)
All I could really reply to anyone that day was ->"arrrrmmmmmgh" <- grumble sound....
I fell asleep for a few hours and woke up
in at least two hours and a half later.
dressed up for dress up moment.
walked outside while Gucci was doing Selams hair.
I left the house even it it was pouring rain.
I just couldn't sleep no more.......... and now, just thinking about it......
I walked up to the 55th ave and walked back home to Isis. I was slowly walking.
Car's had to beeb on they're horns for me to walk faster.
.... my vision became blur..........
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I guess I slept walked the rest of the way till I got on the side walk stairs.
It was strange.
I felt like it was distant to die any time but I guess it wasn't time.
For all I could think of "Gucci would of been mad at me if he knew that I was sleep walking in the middle of the road".
Couple hours later, I realized that I was sleep walking couple hours before time.
Went to bed, since people kept telling me that I had saggy eyes.
(My first saggy eyes, probably ever for the first time)
I was very tired.
..............Monday...........
-> The next day, which is today (9/27/2010) at the moment ->8:30pm
-> worked....... with Ava
->went home with Ava, Pretty boy, Veronica, and a few other people who is in youth build with me.
-went all the way home till I dropped Ava off on the corner of Astrailey (The old place that I used to live at), and soon down towards the park, the group got bigger)
-few hours of rest and came back out....
-hang out at the Astrailey with Seven, Jacob, Ava, Andrew (Beavis and Butthead) hangout for an hour (and they left to go for the community meeting) and met up with Maria and other group. Hang out with them...
and ended up in another group of people with Mama Aphroditie!
And after that....... went home.....
Now I'm here on the computer (FYI, I'm very sick, just typing, because my week was a little bit confusing). Had to sort it out with writing this down.
I'm working on how not to forget things and how to remember things.
(VV.) NOT! FUN!
 xX_THErainbowBATcat_Xx · Tue Sep 28, 2010 @ 04:38am · 0 Comments |
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