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As I go on,
I try to understand the things that surround me,
Causes and consequences,
Right and Wrong.
But then I hit a pivotal point.
The kind that says,
Choose now or loose it all.
And the choice never seems right.
The outcome always feels lose-lose.
The cause, unavoidable.
I find myself always looking back,
Wondering,
Should I have gone left?

It's too late.
I went right.
And now the bridge I crossed to get here has collapsed.
Fallen.
Imagine that.
No wonder I had to choose or loose it all.
Had I stood there undecided,
I would have fallen.

I keep reminding myself,
life is not a game.
I dont get a mulligan every time my ball lands into the water.
But it will be okay.
I am, after all, simply human.
We make mistakes.
We look back.
But we still have to move forward.

As I go on,
I imagine what the end will be like for me.
Then I remind myself that what I imagine to be the end
Is just a point in my travels.
It's not over.
It won't be then.
I may hit a crossroad that looks almost exactly like the one I did
three. bridges. ago.
And that's scary.
It scares us all.
After all who wants to live life in circles?
I don't.
You don't.
But I remain intent on going strait,
As I go on.