May 10, 2010 Monday 2:33 AM
My dearest Sennyo,
I'm listening to "Write Once" by Dessert right now.
I'm definitely going to tell him those words when we next meet, which will possibly be a day on this weekend. Those three words...
We chatted a lot today, and, oh Yevon, how his words are like that of a dream's, to the point of painfulness.
How painful it is to get so close to someone again. But, how I can say this? The last time I let someone get this close to me was years ago, before I developed this hedgehog in my heart.
I want this certainty all the time, not just in the early morning/night, or whenever we're communicating with each other.
I want to love him all the time, like how I do with Him.
Nucc too... I have a feeling that he too is going to say those three words to me...
Not even my first love ever said those words to me in person, ... nor I him.
Reading through the old diaries, I see many similarities. True, I've gotten older, and wiser, and more mature, and more sensible, more controlable, and so much more, but even with this hedgehog's coat I still fall just as hard in love.
Saturday/Sunday is so far away... so scary and frightening as well.
I want to see that day come though. Now that Nucc knows what I wish to tell him, perhaps the temptation to tell him earlier won't come as quickly. Ha, what a lie. I lie to you, Sennyo, I apologize for that. The temptation does not fade, it only lingers about a little less longer.
I love you, Sennyo, I really do. I love myself, Sennyo, I really do.
[End Log] 3:01AM
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