May 5, 2010 Saturday 10:43PM
My dearest Sennyo,
E's cdyndehk du wunno. Dra luihd'c kuehk ib, uv druca frus yna naytehk drec. Bydradec. Ed'c fryd E fyhded, ech'd ed? E lyh uhmo ruba dryc ed ec Nucc dryd's naytehk drec.
10:54PM
Did you know, Sennyo? He claimed me as his girlfriend today during our 40 minute conversation on the phone. He did most of the talking, as always, but I don't mind. I enjoy hearing his voice. So much.
A short while before we spoke on the phone we were chatting via yahoo IM, and I mentioned something about the girls I know IRL having arguments with their significant others. Nucc pointed out the obvious, that it was inevitable that we too will have our share of fights too.
I desperately hope not. This relationship so far is going without pain caused by the other, only the self. I don't want it to come to that point.
I wonder if you're even alive any more. Or even alive in me. Why I bother writing to you all the time.
He referred to me with the suffix "-chan", on the phone. I don't think even He ever referred to me as such in your/our name.
Nucc also used "dearest". Ha, and here I thought and worried that only I used such cheesy, endearing terms like that.
I want to tell him those three words though, Sennyo. I so desperately do. We're arranging to meet next weekend. I hope that I can last that long, because it's something that I want to say with my voice and to his face, in his presence and with him.
11:11PM
I want to say those words to him. And be good for him. Make him want to live, and if not live, at least live for me.
I... too, want to live for him. To do that, I need to acquire a job. Nucc ≥ connecting. However, my heart is torn on whether Nucc> connecting. I want to be certain on the latter, more than anything.
[End Log] 11:19PM
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