April 27, 2010 Tuesday 2:03AM
Dearest Sennyo,
So much has happened since I last wrote you, hasn't there? You've missed so much.
Nucc and I... we've really spoken a lot (via PMs) since then. About eight PMs total in the past six days.
In the first, on the Saturday that he was supposed to be working on (it ended up he didn't have to, only to find that out when he got to work), it was his repy to my confession to him, of my feelings towards him. He said that, to my advantage, I take the time to reflect upon what I communicate before sharing in writing or online, because that's what writing allows.
In another PM, he was talking about whether I prefered to meet him somewhere or have him pick me up. He said he was fine with the latter so long as he didn't have to explain to mother-person and father-person why their daughter=person was getting into the car of someone seven-eight years her senior.
I replied that Nucc could pretend to be the older brother of someone, he said that he would be a deaf mute. I was thinking about using Victory and Vidina as my excuse Saturday. Oh, god.... it's so... soon, isn't it? And yet I feel as if Saturday is so far away. When I don't fret about things, they always bite me in the a**. Therefore I should worry
more about our meeting? I don't know...
Oh, there was a point in our PMs where he said that when it comes to arguments and debates, etc., he'd make his point even if he comes across as a callous jerk. I replied to him that the only time he seemed remotely a jerk was in that thread where Wolf was complaining about too many Asians in the music thread.
He replied that he had almost forgotten about that, and it was strenuous to spell it out for her, Wolf's hypocrisy. Even to ruby was his point lost. He said that he was content if at least one person recognized his point though.
Oh, yes, did you know that Nucc and his mother have eight cats?! Still no sign of Sally though...
I asked him if Wolf's latest post in FC was trying to make us feel bad about not being interested in the L&Rblog. He thought so, since Wolf has a knack for throwing subtly insults all the time.
I lol'd as I told him that I once thought that he and Wolf liked each other, since she used to joke around so much about them two getting married.
He then linked to me a very "..."-like wtf angry face as his face when I had suggested that he ever had a thing for her.
In the following PM he corrected me by inserting an "n" before the "ever".
Today/in the time that I've been awake.
I sent him a double PM, since the night before I just bid him good night after he told he was going off to sleep.
My second said that I didn't want to die anymore. I want to live. "I'm really looking forward to meeting you, and I want to live for that." is what I said.
He replied "I know how you feel." He explained that he struggled to say more, to find more words than just "I know how you feel."
It was kind of him though. Incredibly, terribly, kind of him. Too good for me.
2:29AM
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