April 21, 2010 Wednesday 9:21PM
Dearest,
A hollow calm within me once again. Not terrible, like the second time with RB although certainly not as pleasantly calm as the first time. It all depends on my mood before hand. RB... I'll call her Vidina, so as to not confuse names for future reference, and because she looks to the future. She gives me hope, too, in a tragic and 'romantic' (Amory-style) way as well. I hope she does well in the future world.
Shorty came back today after the assembly. She said that she as yet to speak with Katie and Katherine, because just as she was about to confront the former, the latter came up and whisked Shorty away. She said that she enjoyed her crazy-hospital that she stayed in a lot. Didn't want to leave.
Ugh, the stomach pains.
I texted Nucc shortly after leaving school today, apologizing to him if I had misunderstood his PM, and that he may ignore it and I'll pretend it never happened.
"Nono, youre fine :3 " he replied, along with thanking me for texting him, as it reminded him that he needed to charge his phone.
I have no room in my artificially 'content' mind/heart for that kind of anxiety right now. A good thing I suppose. Ha, and here I thought that I disagreed with mood-altering things, such as the correct way to consume the RB.
I don't want to live anymore. This calm pleasantness makes me realize that, in the best of ways.
[End Log] 9:41PM
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