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I don't know if it's the feeling sick or what but I seem sad today.
To be honest, I don't know what's worse anymore.
The fact that I'm alone and that it seems I can't keep or even get a relationship(That is mostly cause of my shyness and inability to talk to girls I don't know)
Or is it that fact that I'm afraid to face eternity. If I do die and go to heaven, which I hope I will, eternity is a long time to think about. And, even if the atheist are right, which I hope they aren't cause that just makes life meaningless, and equally horrible, because eternity scares me. Gone forever, that's scary too.
And even if I think about what if I was never born it scares me. Never knowing to have existed.
I guess I'm just not well prepared for life.