March 16, 2010 9:45 PM
Sennyo...
Emotions overpowered me yesterday. A lot of things have been happening. Friday evening to Saturday morning I was trolling my heart out! So fun and amazing it was! A shame though that our glory group in memory of our great Raid was banned. lol The Great Kaitlynn Roy Raid...
Friday evening was also the first time I clynat myself in quite a while. Several times uh so vunayns, and drah some more
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on... I think it was Sunday evening on the same arm. Disappointing, isn't it.
And then, that damn Veil, always so damn nosy, wrote a note to me asking how I really felt and blahblahblah. So, being on my medication I told her about my thoughts, more or less, on connecting to myself. I should've known better, dammit. I really should've dammit!
That whore freaked out. Pathetic. Pathetic. Pathetic. A goddamn threat she will present to me now. I still need to think up a response. Damn it all!!
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Veil expect/[ed] me to call her. I just... I don't want to RAGE about her anymore right now.
Yesterday I recieved a PM from Nucc that he had moved back up here! I was so overjoyed and yet terrified . . . I hate this. This Hedgehog's Dilemma. He means so much more to me than anyone else in the world, and here he is now, only about a two hour's drive away. It's so frightening.
He sent me a picture of his car today. It's a small, round and red thing. Kind of girly really, but I didn't tell him that of course... Oh, Nucc...
Sometimes I feel like parts of me are like Amory's romance with Rosalind. Like a play. All drama and a change from scene to scene, but no real change or real movement.
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Also yesterday evening I received a PM from Chan on facebook expressing that
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the next time we meet, probably at a convention, we should hang out and he might ask me out, even though we live far from each other.
My heart raced and twisted like hell. So much anxiety.
Today, after about a four-hour status-comment conversation I finally replied to his PM, telling him that I was really sorry
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I apologize sincerely. Mother-person intruded on us... as I was writing a reply PM to Nucc too. Pathetic old woman. I scarred again yesterday evening. Expected responses from her. She read what little of a PM I had for him. I sent it though. Apologized to him today after he gave a reply.
I also finally sent a response to Veil. Told her my ******** stand, that I wasn't going to call her, and even threatened the break-up of our acquaintanceship if she betrayed me.
Oh, how serious her face was every time she saw me the rest of the day! Ho ho!
Shortie was tearing up today in homeroom. She said that she tried to connect to herself twice. Once last evening, and once this morning, earning her a slap in the face from her sister. With tweezers, she said. The sharpest things in her room. I sent her a note. Perhaps I shouldn't have though. I must apologize to her tomorrow, that I don't want it to seem that I only talk to her when she's in despair.
Nucc... he so intent on meeting. He's very decisive too. He says that when he's not procrastinating he does things NOW. Anything from shipping (paying for things to come faster/sooner) to moving. I told him in my response/apology today about why it was that my
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message was so abruptly finished. But, before that, his reply over the night... He's such a dear man. He said originally that he'd drive over here with his car covered in human skin. In his reply over the night he said the human skin was from a sacrifice, and then he'd come over here, throw me in the car (or I may go in myself), and a temporary wormhole would open up back to his house, and the skin would serve so that we wouldn't be hurled into the depths of the underworld. However, any pursuers would suffer that fate.
Reading a new reply now, he says that it's unfortunate that mother-person took my phone, and thinks that he is a predator, since that foiled his plans as he was planning on sending pictures to me of him wearing women's lingerie. Darn it.
I pray to dear Yevon that Veil does not betray me... Nucc...
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