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I went to a Halloween party tonight, or last night. October 31st, whatever. I saw all my High School friends, hung out, talked, played Rock Band, had fun. I saw my ex too. She was looking great, and I am somewhat ashamed to admit, I was tempted. I think we broke up 3 times, but I was still tempted. Power of a guy's second head, eh?Anyway, I started talking to a couple of my friends, one of which was my ex, and I just started venting. I told them how Halloween was a bad time for me, how I got depressed and angry, because of something that scarred me years ago. I was always fine, until I had nothing to do, and my mind went back to... that. I just started venting. I went on for an hour at least. And... it felt good. I was mostly venting to my ex. We're still friends, so it was nice. She understood me. It felt good to just let out everything. The pain, the sorrow, the broken hopes, the shattered dreams... It was cathartic (look it up) And I enjoyed it. Then I gave my sister (Not really my sister, just a best female friend) and her boyfriend, also my friend, a ride home. It was fine, we talked, it was fun. Until I dropped her off. Seriously, I was sitting in the car, ready to drive the guy home, a favor, y'know? And they were just 'saying goodbye'. In other words, making out for about 15 minutes straight. And that brought back the memories. I hate couples on Halloween. They make me want to puke, because of the afore mentioned memories. When I saw them, I hated them. I still thought of them as friends, but I was just so angry... Me and him were joking around as I drove him home though, so I cheered up, but still... That really made me angry... I guess I'm fine now, but still... This is Halloween I guess.