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This is a journal of my thoughts on anime when I'm in certain moods for different ones, or movies, or music, and occasionally other stuff too! Feel free to share thoughts if you'd like to on some of the stuff I write.

KidHeart4
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Posted: Wed Dec 07, 2005 @ 11:25pm

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	Dearest Friends Everyone has friends right? Friends to depend on...friends to things to......friends to be there for and listen to. Friends that care about each other. Well sometimes, it doesn't work out that way. I've been put through a lot when it comes to friends; between fighting, moving, hurting, and being abandoned. I listen to them when they need me to, and I do what I can to help them. Yet most of the time, when I need that as well, I feel as though I'm walking into an empty room. Wanting someone's shoulder to cry on; but there isn't a person before me. Why is that? If only they knew how much they meant to me. Inside and outside of Gaia, my friends mean the world to me. If I lost any of them, a piece of me would break away. I try to be there for everyone and I try to fix things as much as I can. Yet I feel as though I'm the only one working on several friendships. Making sure that we don't break apart. Making sure everyone is happy. Even if it causes me pain I guess. For it doesn't matter to me if I'm in pain or discomfort. As long as those I love are happy and safe. Isn't that what it's supposed to be like? Caring for those no matter what? If so, then why do I feel so down right now? What friends are caring for me to make sure I'm happy and safe. What friends are listening to me right now? Who's shoulder can I cry on? Who's helping me to keep everything together when I need my friends most right now? Or do I have to do everything on my own, and let everyone forget that I'm hurting and need them as much as they need me. Do they need me? I thought they did.....I thought they wanted me......Yet sometimes I can't help but wonder......When I feel so alone like this.... My friends here and outside of Gaia, I'm saying this now. I love and cherish every single one of you. I don't know what I'd be like if I hadn't met any one of you; or what I'd do if I lost any one of you. I'll always be here for you, no matter what. I promise all of you! If I lost my friends, I know I would fall into dark despair, all alone in pain that no one mend. My dear, dear friends, I love every one of you very much.....

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Commented on: Fri Dec 09, 2005 @ 11:38am


	Being torn apart like that is terrible. When friends fight, it's really hard too. When my friends fight, I don't know which way to go, whether to take sides or break away, running. Usually I end up running. Some coward I am, huh? But you are brave...sticking it out, trying to keep everything as it was. Just please remember...let everyone get some time to cool down. Friendship can be like forging. If the metal is too hot or cold, if you try to move it, it shatters. But eventually the metal will rework itself into its natural shape, and everything will be fine. You are a good friend. I'm glad to have you as mine.

Commented on: Tue Jan 10, 2006 @ 11:36pm


	Wow..that is pretty sad to have no one's shoulder to cry on. I am here for ya and i won't abandon ya(unless i die right nowkl) A true friend like you are always there and make others feel better. but at the moment you need something then they run and hide. If you need a shoulder or even a good friend. I am here and i hope your life is going to get better.

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kiari12
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Commented on: Fri May 05, 2006 @ 02:39am


	Wow, thats vary sad...and at times I feel the same way. I'm always caring for others when they need it. But I think one reason I never have a frined when I need them is because I never let them know. I have never cried to a friend they have always come to me, and I'm always there for them. They say I'm so helpful and so caring, but I don't know if I'm really like that. But I guess if they say I am I am, I trust them and love all of my friends so vary much. And I hope we all stay friends forever.

Commented on: Sat Dec 09, 2006 @ 03:18am


	cry lis, do you really feel this way? do you remember when i said i would always be there for you? I meant every word of it! i dont want our friendship to be the kind where you have to suffer on my behalf! i care about you very much and although i am very busy with college and stuff i want you to know that if you feel like this ever, EVER agian i am the person you can tourn to! i am the person whos shoulder you can cry on! i love you very much and our friendship means alot to me. if i ever hurt you or make you mad PLEASE tell me! i will not stop being friends with you for any reason other than death! if i ever hurt you i want to know because the thought of hurting someone as sweet and thoughtfull as you makes me cry. i would never do anything of the sort on pourpose. i can only fix the problem if you tell me, and i can only help you if you tell me! so PLEASE TELL ME. i may be forgetfull and busy but that does not mean i don't care! i will tryt to call you more. i wll talk to you soon ok and remember i am here for you! heart mrgreen 4laugh

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Rithuul
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Commented on: Thu Dec 14, 2006 @ 08:08pm


	I am here for you. heart

Commented on: Sun Dec 28, 2008 @ 07:00am


	Then live for yourself, not your friends. They can handle themselves. And if not...they should learn to. You might not always be there for them. And don't get so depressed! You have a wonderful life in front of you, focus on that. 'sides, it's not "supposed to be like that". This is a selfish world. Don't expect it to always be nice, because you're one of the few that plays by the rules. You're a good friend. Really. But step away from your friends for a bit, let them breathe and solve their problems on their own. They'll ask if they really need help, and in the meantime you won't be stretched quite so thin. Things tend to work themselves out.

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Commented on: Sun Dec 28, 2008 @ 07:09am


	Girl, you gotta do what's best for YOU. I had a friend who was really really toxic to me and, after a lot of thinking and a LOT of suffering, I had to let her go. It hurt me real bad because we were BEST FRIENDS for a long time! But I had to think, what was more important? My comfort, happiness, and my LIFE, or making sure that this person who was taking advantage of me and not helping me and being toxic to me was satisfied? I don't know what you're going through, it may not even be for that reason, but I'm just letting you know that you have to do what's best for YOU. Don't let anything or anyone get in the way of your happiness and dreams. I know we haven't talked that much but girl, I"m a great listener and I'm always here if you need me. <3

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