so this is me trying not to explode.
Im going crazy. i think i have lost my mind,
I dont know what to do anymore.
Some people are pushing and really im just gunna fall off the edge.
I just feel like im useless.
My boyfriend is sick. and i cant do a darn thing to fix it.
I have no clue how we are going to get to the dance saturday.
I have no clue how im going to get into college. (they say im smart, but idk if i really am)
Things are a little better at home. Minus getting yelled for asking for money for food for dinner tonight, swim team is going out to eat.
I have been slacking with homework. and i need to just buckle down and get it done
My rents are on me about ACT and well. ugh. Im scared about that. They say I test rather well. but idk. Yes I passed all my OGT's at the highest level the first time. but this is different.
My appetite isnt as good as it used to be, and i think its from stress.
I am absolutely paranoid right now.
I feel like at any moment I might just break down into tears.
Ugh....... HELP!!!
Im losing my mind, and i just need someone to say it will all be okay and give me a gigantic hug and hold me. Thats all I need right now.
Today lets seee, Ive maybe said a total of 50 words. and I usually am talking up a storm. IDK whats wrong with me.
Idk if im pulling away or something. but something is wrong. HALP
I dont want to pull away. in fact i want to be close to all my friends.
Idk maybe im being pushed away. At lunch I dont even sit in the same place at the table anymore, i was shoved aside. and Frankly....idk what to do.
This entry is not meant for pity. I dont even think people read it. its more or less for me to try and figure out somethings that are going through my mind.
*sighs* it seems to be alot lately. I just need a place to just dump all my thoughts. so im using this.
I dont know if its actually helping me....but at least I stopped semi shaking. (yes I was shaking) but no worries. Im good now.
I do however still feel like Im going to break down into tears at any moment.
I also feel like I am a screw up. I dont care If you say Im not. I know I am. and thats a fact of life im just going to have to live with,
Well This class period is almost over and i have to tweak a few things on my project. so Im out
If anyone has any comforting words of wisdom or advice I would really Appericiate a PM or something, just to get me through my thoughts.
Thanks All.
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