So today is most definatly a GREAT DAY!!!
im just in a super mood. Im not really sure why, well maybe i am. *laughs* HAHA
I realized a few things last night. that have seemed to lessen my stress and put me in that amazing mood im in.
More or less I realized that I need to stop thinking of myself, yes I have Problems, but everyone does. In the end everything will work out and i just need to let karma and fate take over. No need to cry constantly. Its a waste of time. I will focus on problems of my friends, I have decided to put them first and keep them first in my life. yes somethings they are redundant and keep running to me over the same things, but I am the type of person who seems to ( im not really sure) have great advice, i mean they do keep coming to me so i guess my advice works.
No this does not mean i will freak out if i find out some bad news, im trying something new and its called NO FREAKING OUT! it just causes too many problems. and well im sick of it pretty much so this is my solution.
Idk this might be retarded solution, but in an attempt to show that Im not selfish and that i care. others come first.
But everyone should know that a certain someone is very first. *shrugs* might be selfish putting him first, but i care so much about him and i just want to show him that. he says my stress doesnt cause him to break. but im really not sure how true that is.
I also am not saying that i will bottle up My stress until i crack. I have someone i can go to .... and she is willing to help. Like i say "with experience comes advice" and she has had experience. Just last night I went to her. about a certain worry i had. she helped me realize freaking out doesnt work like i said.
So all in all. Life is good and it will continue to stay good just as long as i keep my friends my love and my sanity. Which so far im doing pretty well with that, (last night i was insanely hyper and was joking around about losing my marbles) WELL I stil have them.. Most of them anyway. (i may have lost a few with my parents) but im good. i can still function. and look above LIFE IS GOOD! I hve my boyfriend my Friends and thats all i need. (oh and acccess to food) cuz for me thats a rather important thing i would say.
Ha speaking of lack of food. yesterday i didnt eat much... so maybe thats why i was "acting crazy" I had one of my friends ask me if i was on speed.
Well im out!
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