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Random Quote: "All right, listen to me. We are going out. But we shall do it like proper vampires, do you hear! There are one thousand people in the church and we are going to scare them to death. I will lift the stone and we will rise together, and when we do, raise your arms and make the most horrible face you can muster and cry out if you can. That will make them fall back, instead of pouncing us and dragging us off to prison, and the we'll rush to the door" - Lestat

I dont know whats wrong with me, I feel like Im ready to rip off my own skin im just that agitated. I dont even know why Im agitated. But I am.

And its driving me INSANE.

God I cant stand it!

In other news, I dropped off more resumes today. Bought more minutes for my phone and got a bus pass for the month. Omg there goes $70 oh and yes I paid my rent as well.

Kill me.

Its getting cold outside.

I still need to go shopping, we never went that day. My hair is driving me insane, the back of my neck is driving me insane and I cant get the Dark Wing Duck theme song to download =P

And my dad is making me feel guilty for moving. Again.

I swear every time I talk to him, he asks me how Im doing and I start to tell him and suddenly he cuts me off and starts to tell me all about how he's doing. And usually its that he isnt doing well or that hes feeling worse and getting sicker. And that he misses me.

I love my Dad, I really do. He's my childhood hero. But as much as I love him, I hate him. And that just makes me feel even worse.

God... just...

blah.

I feel like Im trying to make everything about me and I know thats wrong. And that its not. But it feels like it should be and Im feeling greedy. And I want attention.

But I dont.

Im so not making any sense huh?

Ah well who cares.

Im going to go cry now.

>.>;

No Im not, Im a tough cookie and its all good. =3 hurrah for goodness!

Oh ew I hope I dont start dreaming again o-o Last year was horrible.. er wait not last year.. well yes 2004 I guess it would still be last year but its like.. 2 years ago.. or feels like it. Anyways for like 3 weeks I had these horrible awful dreams every night and it would always wake me up at like 4 or 5 am. And I couldnt go back to sleep because they would like just continue.

I probably need like family therapy or something XD

Pfft.. been there done that. Not fun. Maybe after me and Mum can go together, she probably needs to go just as much as I do.

Shes not allowed to die before my father because I would not survive that.

Knock on wood and dont think about it. Thats kinda my own little rule it seems now that I think about it. Maybe its from childhood.

LOL now thats sad.

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