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I was looking at my last entry. He didn't break up with me... well... he kinda did. I don't know. He didn't say he loved me and didn't want to leave me, he pretty much just said "whatever".
so i took that as he still wanted to date me.
I wish he would have just broken up with me because i found someone wonderful i am very much in love with. How do you break up with a guy you have been dating for 4 years. How do you tell him that you decided you didn't want to spend the rest of your life with him, after pressuring him for 2 years about marriage. Should i give back the rings? I will give him back his necklace. Should i leave him with my pets? I guess Sephy likes him better anyway. I don't want a big custody battle. >.<
Do you think we would still be able to talk civil to each other, or do you think he would pull a Jamie and just freak out? Could we even become friends? Could i stand to see him with another girl, knowing he is "with" her? No, i don't think i could. He has been mine too long. But it isn't fair to him to keep him just because i don't want anyone else to have him. I need to get over that and just let him go. >.<
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I got yelled at at work the other day because i was complaining that two guys like me. Single people are bitter and pissed...
They don't know how much this is tearing me apart.
When i am with my love, i forget that i am dating someone else. >.<
but the second i leave him or get off the phone with him, reality comes crashing down. I have to do something about this...
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