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this poem describes me perfectly... I seem to shy away from showing too much effection to people because im afriad they may reject me sad
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Everything I should've done
Prevents me from expressing
How I really feel
To you it may be simple
To show your love and affection
But to me its a big deal

When we're walking
I want to grab your hand
But I'm scared because im afraid
You might pull back

When you wrap your arms around me
I want to put mine hand in yours
But i'm afraid of what you might do
That everything I should've done
Prevents me from showing
How I really feel about you

When you smile at me
I'm afraid to smile back
Its something that I can't really
Explain
It's like something inside me
Thats messing with my brain

Everything I should've done
Prevents me from saying how I feel
Nothing seems to come out
I'm afraid to say things
That might offend you
And i couldnt handle that

Everything I should've done
It beats me up inside
I'm afraid to take steps
I'm afraid to take a chance
Afraid that if I do
I might never come back

Everything I should've done
Seems to be pushing you away
I dont want to lose you
I love way too much
But how can I step out of my shell
Without trying to make a fool
Of myself?

Everything I should've done
Makes you feel un-wanted
Everything I should've done
Has made me into who I am today
And who i've become