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Have you ever been on the reciveing end of being hurt by someone you know and are really close to. Or has a friend or best friend who has lied to you straight to your face and have caught them in the lie. I have, I've always been on the recieving end of hurt. I have a hard time trusting others and at the moment i'm having a hard time trusting my best friend, but i'm not going into that it's between her and me and i've forgiven her for it.But still most of my life i have been hurt by others i've been through alot and i'm are willing to talk about it with others and help them.
My Best Friend pisses me sometimes Because she asks me for advice and does the total opposite of what tell her and she ends up getting into trouble and i have to get her out of it mostly, that's the truth if you are reading this at the moment. I'm i still able to trust her after all.
But anyway, i don't like to see people getting hurt or that are hurting inside their heart because it hurts me to see them in sorrow. At the moment i'm not sure if my Best Friend is my Friend or any of my friends at my High School, it doesn't anyway because i won't be going to John Jay next Year, So i won't have to deal with problems and i can start fresh and new with others. Others always ask me for advice or what i would do in their situation but they don't ever listen and thats hurts my heart even more. In my last Journal that i wrote in if you haven't read it that's how i constantly feel about my exsistance what is my essence doing in this world.
I can't trust anyone because of the fear of being hurt. Everyday it gets worse and worse with people losing my trust in them. I want to help others but they don't know how it feels to be hurt and sware I won't hurt other and cause them the same pain and hurt they have caused me. I promise you that.