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Does my exsistance mean anything at all in this world of hatred, sadness, pain and suffering. Me, it seems like i'm a burden to everyone i know including my beloved, my friends, my Best Friend and even my family. It seems that my exsistance of being around is annoying to all i know.
It also seems that I have a constant void in my heart, and my soul is tortured, screaming in pain for help. Is it because i'm lonely or is it something else that i can't find the answer for? At night i hug my pillow and cry, wondering what my exsistance means in this world.
When I finally fall asleep I have this dream that is so vived it seems real.
(I'm walking home from the bus and as I walk a darkness follow and surrounds everything including me in the process. And an abyss appears right under me, i lose my balance and as i fall i'm being beaten until i finally hit the cold ground. It takes awhile for me to stand on my feet and i start walking, I stagger in the darkness and it seems like forever and i never find light. And in an instant Ice cold chains wrap around me and they tighten around my neck and i hear people and creatures laughing and watch me die and i take my last breath)
I awake up fron the dream.
BUT it is just a dream and the next day I wake up the same way i usally am a happy normal High School Girl most of the time.
Don't worry about me, I'm fine. okay

Bye
akira mercin