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A place to keep my thoughts and feelings...
My own special place where I can speak and no one will be pissed off.
Face Down
Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.

Cover up with make up in the mirror
tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say your right again,
say your right again
heed my lecture

Do you feel like a man
when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down a new life she has.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
its coming round again.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has.

Face down in the dirt she says, this doesn't hurt she says I finally had enough..


Just to Not Be.
Assumptions of fate,
As I crash through the window.
Glass punctures my skin,
A dying crescendo.
Sounds so loud,
Seems so far away.
Please let this end,
I don’t want to stay.
Don’t let them save me,
It’s not their choice.
Don’t ask me to speak,
I’ve killed my voice.
Don’t you touch me,
I don’t want to be saved.
Let me vanish,
Dig me a grave.
And when I am gone,
Don’t think of me.
This is what I want,
Just to not be.


Stars
Crushed in a hand,
Fingers embrace the night.
Crimson stars twinkle as they fall,
One by one,
Onto the surface you rest upon.
Delighted,
Drops turn into streams,
Exploring your skin.
Asphyxiation greets you.
Mischievously, the stars smile,
Laughing at your stupidity.
Air is dead,
Gone forever.
Gasps are but mere cries,
Failed attempts at life.
The stars consume you,
Your last gasping breath.
Silently, they slither away,
Taking your soul so it can be lost forever.


Thoughts of a struggling teenage girl.


Intergalactic Exploration.
Plunged across the solar system,
Crashed into the moon.
The stars all winked as I passed,
I hope to see you soon.
Alone in this dark mass of space,
Searching for a cause.
The sun is drawing nearer,
Reaching out his claws.
Venus greets as I pass by,
His warmness gives me chills.
And though I feel emptiness,
I also feel the thrills.
Thrills of soaring through the sky,
Of being among the night.
Weaving in between the stars,
On this lonesome flight.
Mercury has just said goodbye,
The Sun is closer now.
Maybe you could save me,
I could tell you how.
Meet me here next the sun,
Make sure youre alone.
Bring something that you treasure,
Forget all thoughts of home.
If we fly into the sun,
Together hand in hand.
We could both survive the heat,
And destroy what was once planned.


It's all just an act..


Why are parents so unreasonable?
Zac was supposed to come over today but his mom won't let him because he was arguing about VBS on Wednesday. So now I won't get to see him until Thursday and that's only if his mom thinks he has a good attitude Wednesday night. She was going to make him pay for gas and my dad even said he'd go pick him up but she said no. I was on the phone with him and his mom was on too. They were arguing for about 20 minutes. We had to move our plans to Thursday. She wouldn't get off the ********' phone either. So we just got off and I cried. I don't really know why but it pissed me off. I really wanted to see him today. He's leaving next Sunday for Montana for a week and a half then he'll be back for four weeks then he's leaving again to New York for a month. I'll hardly get to see him. I guess it doesn't really matter.

On happier notes, I'm getting my ears double pierced and my right top cartilage pierced. I'm excited. And Chloe and I are gonna get out pictures redone. She doesn't know it yet though. xD

And I'm eating 4 apples, a handful of grapes, chicken selects, and some fries. And I have a pepsi.
I think it evens out. ><

"I cannot live, I can't breathe, unless you do this with me"


Hate me
(Verse 1)
I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

(Verse 2)
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing that I won't touch again.
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so ******** far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

(Chorus)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you.


(Verse 3)
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling make it go away,
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

(Chorus)
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you


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