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s**t this phone sucks... Gaia you need a mobile friendly version.
Holly geebus I can barely navigate this thing...
Reading my old entries was fun...
So to update well no one... cuz... no one reads this. Never did. It was mostly just for me.
I'm no longer thinking about the whole trans thing. In fact, I'm embarrassed to admit I ever went down that rabbit whole.
I'm a woman, I prefer to keep company with other women. The odd thing is, every once in a while I fall for a dude. This is confusing at times but I don't dwell on it.
I'm a human being who likes other human beings.
In life... I worked hard recently to get my CNA certification in pa & I'm thrilled about that.... bu... you know there's no end to life or its many problems.
My car died a few days ago... it's not so much dead as it's not worth fixing...
I have a bicycle though and my job is close to my house so in the beginning of winter... it's off to work I go on my bicycle freezing my a** off but hey, weight loss is extreme.
What else?
My pos father kidnapped my daughter from me and I haven't seen her in about 4 years?
And that sucks all the time... every day...
My heart is a bitter, black, broken, hole in my center.
There are days I can barely live with myself for all the bad decisions I've made. ... the friends I've lost... the fact that ive drifted through my life thus far without goals... how very dissapointed my grandpa would have been in me were he still here... how disappointed i am in myself.
Eh...
But there is hope.
I still brethe, I still have faith,
I put one foot in front of the other each day trying to be better than the person I was yesterday.